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This isn't normally something I'd write a journal about. But it's got me a little down in the dumps today, and maybe writing it out will help.

Yesterday, I heard that a Jr High/middle school student(whichever you prefer, either 7th or 8th grade) died. This was a school that I went to a few years ago, but I'm almost done with High School now. Anyway, some kids in my orchestra asked the teacher what happened, and that's all she knew. She basically told us that she's supposed to watch out for kids who might be depressed. A couple girls said that they heard this student committed suicide by hanging herself in her room. 
That's terrible. It made me sad to hear it. When I got home later that day, I thought about bringing it up to my mom. Not sure why, I just thought about it. But I kept forgetting to. 
Today, my mom told me a girl I knew had died recently. I didn't know her well. She was the sister of a friend of mine. We weren't really close friends, but this friend has some mental disabilities and she's really cute and nice. She graduated last year and I haven't really seen much of her lately. Her younger sister goes to my school now. Don't know her very well either. Anyway, their youngest sister (there's four girls in their family; my friend being the oldest, the sister in my school being the 2nd, a 3rd one, then the youngest), died. My mom goes on to tell me that she hung herself and I connected the dots.
This girl is just a little older than my younger sister, Alexis. It's difficult to imagine a girl, who I didn't realize was having problems like that, would kill herself. It makes me sick to imagine being the one to discover that this happened. Even more so to imagine what it would be like to find my own sister did something like that to herself. I've never had something like this happen in my life before. People I know have died, but never like this.
I didn't know this girl well, I hardly ever saw her. It's terrible to hear about people who commit suicide, even more so when you know the person, and even more when you were close to her, and I can't even imagine what it's like for her family. I don't know what was going on in her life, maybe she was bullied, maybe she didn't have people she felt were her friends, I just don't know. But I can't help but wonder if things might have been different if someone had known she was willing to do this to herself. If she had a friend who could have helped her or encouraged her in some way. She's in my ward, never comes to church or to the activities though, but I wonder if she should have tried to reach out to her more. Invite her to come and give her a ride so she could. Make her feel welcome with us. I don't know if that would have helped, but at least we would have tried.
What I really don't understand, is why people feel their life is so hard that they have to give up. In giving up, they put their families in a difficult situation. I, personally, would never want to do that to my family. Maybe they think it doesn't effect anyone else if they give up, but it effects so many people. I hardly knew her and it effects me. 
If you ever have suicidal thoughts, please do your best to ignore them. Suicide really hurts a lot of people, even if you don't realize it. And if you suspect someone of being depressed or suicidal, please try to help them in any way you can. And realize that some of the most depressed people act the happiest and try to make other people happy(like Robin Williams, for example). So don't think that supposedly happy people can't be depressed. 

Now that I've got that off my chest... Have a good day.
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  • Reading: Your Thoughts
  • Watching: Your Soul
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Kingdomwolf13 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
thanks for fav^^
A-bob Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem. ^^
Lucoshi Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Hi you know, i believe there is a conspiracy behind the Mr. Men fandom i mean when i ask how they get in their actual fandom they said "mind your business" they quit and they now they hate, when told to Rodolfo something about the Mr.Men he told me stop making him come back to the fandom, Dan said me he found the light and he's a neo-nazi and Kiki maybe was hiding her hate or trying to show her hate for her hate of the Mr Men. One thing i want to do when i find the bad guy behind all this (i call him Mr. Anonymous) is sing this Oogie boogie song parody  

Well, well, well, what have we here?

Mr. Anonymous, huh?
Oh, i'm really scared
So you're the one behind all this tee hee hee

You're jokin', you're jokin'
I can't believe my eyes
You're jokin' me, you gotta be
This can't be the right guy
He's a gamer, he's a brony
I don't know which is worse
I might just fart on your face now
If i don't die laughing first

When Mr. Lucoshi says
There's trouble close at guess who
You'd better pay attention now
'cause i was after you
And if you aren't shakin'
Then there's something very wrong
'cause this may be the last time now
That you hear the Lucoshi boogie song, ohhh





Ohhh, he's the great cunning Lucoshi

Well if i'm feelin' bored
And there's nothin' much to do
I might just interrogate
all 'cause of you
And don't ya know the one thing
That would make it work so nice?
Some trolling to add a little spice


Oh, yeah




Ohhh, he's the great cunning Lucoshi

Mr. Anonymous:
Release me now
Or you must face the dire consequences
The Mr. Men Fans aren't expecting me
So please, come to your senses

You're jokin', you're jokin'
I can't believe my ears
Would someone shut this fella up
I'm drownin' in my tears
It's funny, i'm laughing
You really are too much
And now, with your permission
I'm going to do my stuff

Mr. Anonymous:
What are you going to do?

I'm gonna do the best i can

Oh, the sound of 100% fanfare 
To me is music in the air
'cause i'm a completionist
Although i don't play fair

It's much more fun, i must confess
When they gamble on the line
Not mine, of course, but yours, bad boy
Now that'd be just fine

Mr. Anonymous
You will be my henchman if you don't stop this.
I'm warning you!

Oh, brother, you're something
You put me in a spin
You aren't comprehending
The position that you're in
It's hopeless, you're finished
You haven't got a prayer
'cause i'm Mr. Lucoshi
And you ain't going nowhere

any questions?
A-bob Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Conspiracy? I think they just moved on. Mr. Men was a phase and they've grown past it. That's their right and they're probably just tired being forced back into it. Maybe they hate Mr. Men now because they didn't like the fandom, or that people wouldn't let them leave in peace. I'll admit I've moved on too. I don't hate Mr. Men, I just don't really care anymore. 
Piece of advice: Just leave them alone. If they want to come back, they'll do that on their own. If they don't want to come back, then that's their business. 
Lucoshi Featured By Owner 5 days ago
I also moved too i lost my interest because so many people is quitting the fandom so if you are a fan and can't beat them keep your love and walk away.
A-bob Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Interests come and go. You can continue to make Mr. Men art and you can continue to like it, but you can't force other people to stay. That's just how life is.
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TixieLix Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave on my latest Link ^^
A-bob Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem. :)
Guericke Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2015
Thank you for the fav very much)
A-bob Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem! :D
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